as if it were your last.

i've often heard the phrase "live each day as though it were your last" i used to think that was an incredibly stupid phrase. to me, it was unrealistic. but lately the i've been thinking - what if today was my last? what if i went to sleep and never woke up?

that phrase, has more to do with attitude than with action. before when i would hear someone say something like that, i would think "okay, if today were my last day, i would want to do A, B, and C" but what i am discovering is that its not about what i need to do, but rather what i am doing now. deep down, i know that if today was my last, i would not hear the words "well done, good and faithful servant" in heaven.

some of the events of the last month have caused me to think carefully about how i live my life. i can see that god is using these tragic and shocking things to get me attention. my heart is more open to his will in my life, than it has ever been.

i used to be a pessimist - one who only saw the bad in every circumstance. but lately i've been learning that there is good in everything. god allows hurtful things to happen so that he may be glorified. and sometimes we may never see that. but sometimes we will, and it is an encouragement to keep living, and to keep trusting.

are you living each day longing to hear the words "well done, good and faithful servant?"