calling?

To this end also we pray for you always, that our God will count you worthy of your calling, and fulfill every desire for goodness and the work of faith with power.

at covenant, we talk a lot about calling. our "big c" and "little c" callings and how to best utilize the callings god has given to us. but, lately i have been thinking - what is my calling? i know i am called to be a student. i am a daughter, sister, aunt. but what is my higher calling? sometimes i think "if only i was married, if only i was a mother, if only i was a teacher.." but if onlys dont get me anywhere and neither does ignoring my present calling. its hard for me to see. i dont see my life as having a big impact on others. i often think i've failed somehow. but then i realize that i dont need an audience to make me feel worthy. the only one who can do that is god. he hasnt given up on me. my life is a gigantic work in progress, but slowly i am able to imagine the finished product. i just pray that "he who began a good work in me, will be faithful to complete it."