calling?

To this end also we pray for you always, that our God will count you worthy of your calling, and fulfill every desire for goodness and the work of faith with power.

at covenant, we talk a lot about calling. our "big c" and "little c" callings and how to best utilize the callings god has given to us. but, lately i have been thinking - what is my calling? i know i am called to be a student. i am a daughter, sister, aunt. but what is my higher calling? sometimes i think "if only i was married, if only i was a mother, if only i was a teacher.." but if onlys dont get me anywhere and neither does ignoring my present calling. its hard for me to see. i dont see my life as having a big impact on others. i often think i've failed somehow. but then i realize that i dont need an audience to make me feel worthy. the only one who can do that is god. he hasnt given up on me. my life is a gigantic work in progress, but slowly i am able to imagine the finished product. i just pray that "he who began a good work in me, will be faithful to complete it."

unexpected.

never in a million years did i envision my freshman year coming to the end that it did. tornadoes, no water or power, emergency evacuations, and canceled finals. it has been really crazy and confusing as we had 24 hours to pack and get off campus. because it all happened so fast there was no time to prepare to leave and no goodbyes. it seems hard to believe that i will be gone from covenant for almost four months!

as all this unfolded, i was reminded of the verses in james that tells us we are not even guaranteed tomorrow. we make plans for tomorrow, next week, and even next month, but no one knows if they will be alive tomorrow. as i sat in the basement hiding from tornadoes and as i surveyed the damage that was done to the surrounding area, i am 1. grateful to God that i am still alive and 2. in total awe of His power and control.

please continue to pray for the people of Chattanooga and the surrounding area as they try to piece their lives back together.