the end.

its the end..of freshman year, that is. i cannot believe it is over. this year went by in a flash. thinking back to orientation week and first semester i can see how much i have changed, grown, and learned. covenant has been the biggest blessing in my life.

academically this year has been challenging. last semster was pretty easy, but this semester has been especially difficult. i have played catch up, due to my less than amazing high school education. i have failed tests and come really close to failing a class. and for a straight A high school student, this broke down my pride. but i have learned so much through failing, things that will make me a better person and a better teacher.

financially, this semester has been rough. BUT God has been so faithful to me. I have seen him answer prayer after prayer in ways i could not even imagine. by next week, my school bill will be paid IN FULL with a little left over for next semester. i remember thinking during christmas break, that it wasn't possible. i couldn't understand how my bill would be paid. but Christ has done more than i could have imagined or asked for. He provided me with a summer job that i am super excited about! and even though i had a few disappointments along the way, i realize that his plan is best for me, and not always what I want.

relationally, this has also been a hard year. especially combined with my many health problems this year, i have struggled in relationships with others. but at the close of this year, i am so thankful for the many friends i have made at covenant and their support and prayer for my life. i have definitely learned to "bear one anothers burdens."in fact, i am really sad to be leaving this mountain for three months. i will miss the atmosphere and the people here very much over the summer.

this year has been overwhelming and exhausting. but i am so thankful for it. i have faced trials, but have come out of the fire a stronger and wiser person. the trials are not up. this summer is going to be challenging. i am still struggling to find my identity in Christ. my health is still trying. financially i cannot afford next semester. and academically, i am worried about my GPA. BUT none of these things really matter in the long run. Christ has shed his blood for me and redeemed me. So during this passion week, and the close of my freshman year, i continue to pray that "He who began a good work in you, will be faithful to complete it."

i have no idea what the future will hold. whether i will return to covenant, whether i will ever actually be a teacher, whether i will ever have a family. i hate uncertainty. but i am learning that no one knows what tomorrow holds. we are not guaranteed tomorrow! i am slowly learning to put my life and every aspect of life in His hands, trusting that he knows my future and will direct my paths accordingly.
"trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your understanding, in all your ways acknowledge Him, and he will direct your paths. "