why.

sometimes i wonder why. my list of why's could go on and on and on and on some more. sometimes i know the answer to why questions...even just why is life so hard? we all "know" the answer, but do we really know? lots of times we try to appease all our why questions with empty meaningless answers that really doesnt make any one feel better at the end of the day. sometimes i feel like i am living a meaningless life. why am i here? what is my purpose? am i really going to do anything worth it in this life? i "know" the answer to these questions, but my heart does NOT know. sometimes it all seems so pointless. i try to understand, but i cant. i turn to god, but still lack fulfillment. i try to be thankful for the many blessings in my life...but i cant find the words. and all i am left with, at the end of the day, is why?