100 thanks.

often times when i am discouraged or depressed i allow those feelings to overtake me. however, lately i have been convicted of not giving thanks enough. i am so blessed, and no matter what my troubles, i have so much to be thankful for. my sister is reading a book called 1,000 gifts. coming up with 1,000 things i am thankful for seemed a bit daunting. so i am challenging myself to make a list of 100 things i am thankful for. once i compile my list, i will share it. why dont you take the challenge and write out 100 things you are thankful for. i would love it if you shared with me your list. even breath is a gift from God - even when those breaths are weighed down with anxiety and pain. even pain is a gift, for it teaches us more about ourselves, and more about others. 100 thanks.

why.

sometimes i wonder why. my list of why's could go on and on and on and on some more. sometimes i know the answer to why questions...even just why is life so hard? we all "know" the answer, but do we really know? lots of times we try to appease all our why questions with empty meaningless answers that really doesnt make any one feel better at the end of the day. sometimes i feel like i am living a meaningless life. why am i here? what is my purpose? am i really going to do anything worth it in this life? i "know" the answer to these questions, but my heart does NOT know. sometimes it all seems so pointless. i try to understand, but i cant. i turn to god, but still lack fulfillment. i try to be thankful for the many blessings in my life...but i cant find the words. and all i am left with, at the end of the day, is why?